My dad physically abused me when I was that age too, and I recently found out that he sexually abused me too. Recently like two days ago. I've started talking to the people at http://www.pandys.org/ and I'm starting to sort (posted to Sometimes, I wish I wasn't a survivor)
I am so sorry he treated you that way. Of course you cannot just "let go" and move on. In fact, if you've been in denial, it probably feels like this all happened just yesterday. You're reeling. Of course you (posted to Sometimes, I wish I wasn't a survivor)
Also I meant to thank you for posting this. It is so raw, so honest. Later you may see things differently and even be tempted to polish up some of the less acceptable feelings. But the world needs to hear (posted to Sometimes, I wish I wasn't a survivor)
Right on with that - if someone can't try to understand you, then they are not worth the time. You seem to have such a good grasp of what you want in a relationship and your own capabilities. Honestly, it's (posted to Sometimes, I wish I wasn't a survivor)
